A lot has happened since I was here last. It seems like lately the bad has been outweighing the good, but life goes on. When receiving good and bad news, most people like to start with the bad right? I guess that’s where I’ll begin.
I am getting a new boss at work, which is interesting. No one at work is talking about it, but it’s obvious everyone knows how awkward the situation is. Facts are facts — it’s awkward. There is no getting around it. No one knows what happened, but it is what it is. 🤷I’m sad because I had a truly amazing boss (at least I thought so) and now I’m nervous about who will come next. I’ve learned the hard way just how much having the right boss can make or break you when it comes to loving or hating your job.
Naturally this change has caused a lot of work to pile up. Here I thought things were finally about to calm down. Just when you think you are being given a chance to catch your breath, something happens to get you running again. I’ve become mildly overwhelmed at work trying to keep up with everything.
Some moments feel like I am drowning, and some moments I stop and think, “oh, okay this isn’t as bad as I thought. I’ll be fine.”
In other bad news, someone close and dear to me has lost someone who meant the world to her. It is a hurt I cannot even begin to understand. Her pain is not something that can ever be taken away, and I would be doing her a huge injustice by trying to. I know all I can do is be here while she lives through it.
There’s also a lot of other general stresses and mood killers going on in life but nothing too important to go into detail about. Just the usual — bills, car troubles, worrying about my credit, self-doubt, anxiety, and being paranoid about bed bugs. No actual bed bugs so far but I keep having dreams that make me paranoid.
Some photos of life lately…
I am going to California for my girls’ trip soon! I will be going to Disneyland and Universal Studios and I will get to see AJ for the first time since her wedding! It has been over a year now — it’s crazy how quickly time flies. I don’t want to dwell too much on the up-coming trip because I’m hoping to talk more about it once it happens.
I am also getting more into the habit of doing things I used to love doing. I am decorating my planner again, reading a tiny bit again. I’m here — I’m blogging again — and in the healthy way, not the toxic way!
I picked up another new hobby and have been continuing one I’ve talked about on here before.
You guys know about my Polaroid Project, which is all about taking photos for the purpose of memories, not for the purpose of curating a perfect social media feed. My fridge is mostly covered in polaroids now, and I’ve also started a photo album to keep the overflow in. I love all the photos I have now and I treasure them not for aesthetic reasons but for the nights and the moments they represent.
Maybe I’m getting old, but I’m so appreciative of the solid friend group that we have here and I never want to take them for granted. I want memorialize our friendships in a true and authentic way and I get to do so through these photos.
Well, I’ve also added an addition to the project — I’ve started using old-school disposable cameras as well. I know it’s how I grew up taking photos but it was such a foreign feeling at first taking a photo and having no knowledge of how it’s turned out. It’s exciting waiting for the photos I don’t know I’ve taken.
This photo thing is, I think, going to be my best life decision. I know years from now I will be cherishing these so much.